So sense the last time i wrote life as been to hell and back i lost her i got her back in tryin to get a job wich sucks and my dad pisses me off pretty much all the time and i think i might end up moving out as soon as i can because i am sick of my parents.

Well the good news is i still have paige the one the only one that understands me and i can tell enything too i love her so much and i hope i never have to live without her.  She is the world to me and i dont know if she really knows that but some day she will.  i cant waite for the future to see what it holds for me and piage i hope we have a great realazitionship and we have all 9 kids and live a great life.

Piage ann smeal i love you so much and i hope someday u will marry me

Yea so i havent writin in this thing for ever,  so the only thing thats goin on in my life is paige, and ball and thats all i need my wonderful girlfriend.  Yea your right not ball its tiring and it takes me away from the one thing that does matter paige

well last weekend i went to monaca with paige to get her dress and it is goin to be beautiful. Well her in it is goin to be.

well im out peace

i love you paige anne smeal

Today was another perfect day. You all might ask why?  Well first i woke up and called the most wonderfull thing in my life, my girlfriend Paige.  We talked and then her mom came in and asked if i could go up and babysit so i did.  I got to see paige for like 5 min then she left to get her schadual for school.  When  she was gone i chilled with the kids.  When she got home we whent to paint and kinda started a argument so then we stoped and whent and chilled down stairs.  Then when the kids left we whent to pick up there fan and tow it to tims house, Know that was interesting.  Then to blue kow and to her house then home and know just chilling and talking to Paige. 

im out

Love you so much paige anne smeal

No one understands how the last 2 months and 17 days have been the best of my life.  They have been so great because i spent them with my world and everthing Paige Anne Smeal.  She means so much to me.  And i LOVE her so much.  We have been spending alot of time together and are feelings have gotton a lot stronger for eachother.  The one thing about her is when i see her i cant stop staring her, her BEAUTY, and PERSONALLITY are the key things about her.  She is the only girl that can make me cry one second and laugh the next.  Her green eyes, blond/red hair and everything else is so perfect.  I often thougt about the day im goin to loose her but i realized that day will never come because i LOVE her and she LOVES me.

Paige Anne Smeal i LOVE you so much and u better never forget that.

This is Paige, and I want to talk to you all about something very important.

I need to tell you all how much Jesse means to me, because i'm sure nobody really knows, or understands.  Here it goes.

As most of you know, Jesse and I tried things once and they didn't work out.

Jesse and I have been together for almost two months so far this time and it seems like only a week.  Nothing ever gets old when it comes to Jesse and I, and though I may talk about other guys/think other guys are cute, I know that no other guy compares to Jesse.  We tell each other everything, and though sometimes everything causes problems we also work through our problems, which makes us stronger as a couple.  I could/would never leave Jesse and could/would never cheat on him again.  I'd never do something to fuck up the relataionship I have with my Jesse and when it comes to other guys, i'm all talk.  No lie.  Things are so different between us now then they were the first time we went out and it's absolutely amazing.  We were together for two months the first time and it seemed like too long.  Now though, nothing gets old and I really can't believe that I was scared to get back with him at first.  If I wouldn't have gave him a second chance i'd be miserable and I would've missed out on a great oppurtunity.  Hey, and i'm even starting to get to know his mom.  I have so much within Jesse and Is' relationship he's my everything.  I couldn't ever fuck things up because I never want to lose what we have, or another bestfriend.  So I hope this explains to everyone how much Jesse really means to me, because I love him more than anything.  I've never felt this way about anybody.

I love you *-sweetie-* 

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